Been missing you my loves! After flying back from Chicago, we’re now in California again. Feels seriously so good. The weather here is without any doubt unique. Compared to the cold of Chicago, L.A feels like a warm paradise. But no time to chill around : we’ve got some cool things on our plate. I would love to give you a couple of words (it might be a little more than that as I am not very good at shortening my thoughts. Giving it all or nothing!!!) about what exactly we have been up to while in the city…
I am afraid I don’t want to reveal too much as everything is still in progress, but I can’t but not share with you such an important step in my life. I’ve been spending most of my time working on music. It’s been all about recording everyday with Lance, my amazing friend and producer, writing new songs, practicing my songwriting skills, having vocal classes each morning and just living, breathing, thinking, music all day long.
As I already said it in the past, music has been one of my biggest passions, and that ever since I’m a kid. I’ve been doing small shows when I was 4 years old growing up in Minsk. My parents got me in a little music school as soon as they’ve heard me say in the most confident way that I wanted to be a singer. Funny is, I affirmed this after hearing Céline Dion’s “My Heart Must Go On” in Titanic for the first time. I was in awe… Eyes and ear wide open. Then Britney Spears convinced me even more at age 5. My whole family saw the drive right away. I was singing all day long, dancing all the time and constantly dressing up like I was going to a masquerade party. They weren’t really sure why I was such a little performer as the whole family has always been more brainy than artsy, but they got curious when I started writing my own songs as I turned 6, mumbling english words I didn’t really know after hearing them just once on TV.
When we moved to the states, it was obvious for them to give me the opportunity to keep practicing. Anytime they’d start filming family videos and my dad would ask what I want to do when I grow up, I would say ” I want to be a singer!”. I was saying it so convinced that I’d start to convince them that it is indeed the greatest and only thing in this world I am meant for. If we had to make a family picture, I’d throw on a Cinderella dress and work it at Wallmart while doing grocery shopping with my mom.
Except that it wasn’t that easy. Our family didn’t have that much flexibility as they both needed to work day and night to survive in this new country they’d just move in. Taking the cost of extra music classes was kind of impossible. We got lucky when we moved to Switzerland and life got easier. I started to take dance classes and even auditioned to enter in a music school. I was so happy when I got admitted. I felt like I was finally doing something to fulfill my dream.
Unfortunately Switzerland is not very known for it’s entertainment industry. In fact, there is none and the opportunities are very shallow for new artists to break through. So I just kept going to my classes… I danced ballet for 8 years and even started to take musical and theater lessons. I knew that all I ever wanted to be, was an artist. That’d just be the coolest thing ever.
My brain was completely channelled on this and I honestly just didn’t know how to think of anything else. And honesty I didn’t really know how to do anything else…! I sucked a sports, wasn’t allowed to go out that much… Music (and playing Sims) became my sweet escape. Singing has always been like air for me. If I wasn’t singing for a couple of days, I’d go kind of crazy. It made me feel like I was repressing and keeping some emotions in me while’s music helped me to let it all out. It’s what came to me the most naturally and how I basically dealt with life. No matter what happened, music would always be the solution.
So when I got in high school and matured a bit, I grew a massif interest for art in all it’s forms and more specifically fashion. I felt like it helped me express outwards how I felt inwards… My will to be an entertainer translated through my clothing. I would always come to school with some bright eye liner, chunky heels, a big mustard dress intriguing (and not always in a good way) my classmates and teachers.
During school time, I’d write song lyrics in my notebooks, draw dresses imagining myself wearing them on stage. I ended up creating a few bands with some of my best girl friends. The year when I met James, I was singing in a band called “The Phew” and you guys know the story from that point on. I started doing small modeling gigs to get myself out there and experience the camera. One day I decided to post a picture of my outfit on a website called Lookbook and very soon opened a blog that turned out to be what it is today.
At that point, I felt like I was experiencing a new form of entertainment expression which allowed me to instantly share a message, express who I was and to connect with the entire world. I had the ability to inspire people and get inspired. Fashion became first and replaced music for several years in my life as my deliberate form of expression. I was super hooked and I saw opportunities show up right away thanks to the beautiful connectivity that goes along with the online world. I couldn’t believe that my voice exceeded the limits of Switzerland and that I was starting to travel to places like Japan, or New York with brands who wanted to work with me because of my fashion sense. My blog gave me a voice, a power to share I thought I could only have with music.
Yet along with writing for Kayture, I was writing lyrics for songs that I kept playing and inventing in my head while travelling the world. It was like an urge that seriously couldn’t ignore. I would isolate myself in my hotel room to record a quick voice memo just because I didn’t want to forgive a certain melody. It was like that almost every single day to a point, last year, when I just realized that I shouldn’t repress a long-lasting passion because something else ended up working for me. Indeed, I got so lucky that blogging came into my life so naturally, but I couldn’t forget what I’ve been dreaming of for all these years.
Blogging helped understand and share my feelings on a day to day basis. It taught me so much. My biggest goal is to be able to create and share a story with you, to not be afraid of getting lost and to find a new path, to be the best person I can be, to grow and to grow with you. I always remember that one day I want to look back at my life and be in peace with the paths I took. I fear regret so much and I couldn’t forgive myself for not following my heart. My dream is to create an uplifting, inspirational movement that translates through fashion, music, photography, text and much more. I feel like Kayture is only the first step of this journey. It’s the first chapter. The very seed and that’s why I am SO passionate about it and put all my heart and soul into it. As cheesy and funny as it may sound, to me, it feels like it’s time to grow the plant now.
So all I can say, is that I am ready for it. I want to get this to the point where I want it to be. I want my music to be a magical moment of human connectivity and creativity, to lift people up and to draw a smile on their faces that makes them wanna go out and conquer the world. And that’s why I know that I want to put my all and everything in this… That I have to believe in me before expecting you guys to. I promise that I’ll infuse it with every single bit of what I have inside.
So here’s a little bit about what has been going on in my life lately. And I wanted to share this with you on this special day because on the 28th of October, meaning two days ago, I celebrated my 21st birthday and it really feels like a new step in my life. Especially since I am now in a completely different context, living with James and Lance in Los Angeles, being so far away from my family, working day and night trying to handle both Kayture and music… A lot goes on on our minds! It was seriously growing on me not to be able to talk with you about my music as I felt like I wanted to secretly work on it without giving away too much. But I want you all to be a part of this, because like I’ve already said it in the past, you guys are so deeply part of my life.
And on a lighter note, nothing feels better than sharing with you on this special day, one of my favorite looks from Milan fashion week. Attending the Dolce & Gabbana show this season, was the biggest honor ever as it’s also one of my favorite brands. The guest list this year involved very, very few bloggers and I couldn’t be more grateful to have been given the opportunity to attend the show. Stefano and Domenico, are true geniuses and always inspired me to be bold and feminine. Dolce & Gabbana is all about a story and about going down to the roots. Taking inspiration from the past to create the present, and the future. When I saw this gorgeous Key print dress, it obviously reminded me of Middle Age. It has such a symbolical and iconic silhouette. Obviously evolving around that same idea and era, I picked a golden crown, bejeweled with red and green gems as well as this beautiful key/lock clutch which totally looks like a knight’s precious little treasure. Now the boots are one of my favorite details of this look as they flatter the silhouette and make the legs appear so much longer. Plus : they are in-cre-di-bly comfortable. Thanks Jimmy Choo ;) hope you guys will enjoy this outfit.
Love you all so much.
Never stop dreaming.
OUTFIT OF THE DAY
BAG : Dolce & Gabbana
SHOES : Jimmy Choo