Well, it’s been a while. To say the least! I do feel like I explained my periodic absence on the blog longly in previous articles, but it’s always a bittersweet feeling. Coming back, laying my fingers on the keyboard and just writing down these words straight open to you all always felt so good. And that’s why I keep coming back. This freedom of expression given to us all through the curious thing that is internet is a gift and a curse both at the same time. The gift itself is a precious one though and I am so glad to be able to have this chance to connect with you from time to time, when I feel like my heart has some words or thoughts interesting enough to share.
As a personal update, here’s what I’ll say. Although I’ve been posting drastically less (and feeling drastically better because of it let’s just put it out there) on both my social media and blog, my life was been evolving and changing in the most absurd and drastic way. To my best surprise. Finally things I’ve kept deep down somewhere in me are taking proper form. My understanding of life and what I want to make out of it maturing and taking a shift I enjoy watching grow. Progressively, I am becoming the person I want to be, the person I could be truly proud of and aiming to do what my heart is truly longing for. Taking space from the virtual world was the best decision I ever took. Even though for so long it felt like it was adding more pressure than anything else. Until I realized that it was a pressure I was inflicting on my own self. With that being behind, I am so focused right now on being whole, to the world and to my self. Embracing each and every single trait of my being to be as sincere with myself and my life as I possibly can, and without regrets.
I have been working so much on writing. I’ve just been writing pages and pages of text that I hope, and probably will share with you one day. The work I’ve done for my previous book was so fulfilling, it’s a process I enjoy so much. We always have our eyes so turned to the world that we forget to look inside. It’s so nice to find myself at night, while the whole world feels like sleeping, drowning into the deepest part of myself and reminiscing over life itself. These are true, rare moments of peace, tranquility, serenity. Just a contemplation of the arbitrary curiosity that constitutes the world and how our thinking plays along with it, trying to bring in some meaning. These words laid on paper, reflecting a moment, a time, a thought born from life and it’s experiences seems to just float, completely out of time, and for a moment, while everything around feels so ephemeral, us and all the rest, these ideas laid down are the closest we get to a feeling of infinity.
Of course, I’ve been also extremely focused on my music. It is my main occupation and priority at the moment as I am constantly in and out of the studio working with new producers and developing the project. I can’t tell you exactly when more music will come out but when it’s ready, it’ll be the right time. There’s no deadline to such things. And although I hate speaking about things that I can’t show, I can’t wait for it to simply speak for itself. For you to understand why waiting sometimes, especially in our current world where it all goes so fast, is actually such a beautiful, and great thing. So if anything, this project means way too much to me to spoil it.
I am working on a few other surprises, things I can’t mention yet, but just know, your girl’s busy ;) and I promise, it’s worth the wait. It’s worth the distance, the absence and so on. I feel like this all allows me to be a better me. So I can be a better me for you too. With that being said, I wanted to share with you today a set of pictures that Cibelle and I shot together last year. We wanted to create something embodying the L.A scenery and mix it together with a literary inspiration, which is a character we’ve already used in previous shoots, Dolores a.k.a Lolita from Nabokov’s novel of the same title. The colors are sweet like candy, I got an old taste of what it feels like to be blonde again by wearing this crazy wig, but the eyes… they’re meant to be sad. If you read the book, you’ll know why. It’s a lollipop with a bitter filling. Hope you guys will enjoy it. And talk to you soon!
Shot by Cibelle Levi
Styling / Art Direction KB